Man, the last two days have been so fucking rough. Friday night I slept about 3 broken hours. I had to go sleep on the couch sitting up and Camila wrapped around me while I rubbed her back. Then I had an appointment w two clients on Saturday. I really pushed thru it. I gave it my all with my first client and I prayed to the gods that I was able to give her what she wanted and she would be happy. The color to me came out perfect! And I finished on time. I was able to gobble down chik fil a before my second client.
Thank the heavens above it was just a haircut, she was totally understanding too because I asked her if she wanted it curled but she said I didn’t have to. She was happy with it just not being frizzy.
I posted how I was so tired and she was so sweet to reach out and be appreciative that I was able to fit her In.
I had made the decision to no longer taking clients on Saturday. Nicole has been a Loyal and sweet client for years so I thought I’d be able to squeeze her in one last time.
I was happy to no longer take clients on weekends, I feel so guilty when I’m at work and Oscar and Camila are just out having a blast. I get major FOMO. Also, it just worked out that I won’t work weekends because he has a big project in calixico so weekends will be family time! (Btw. If you’re reading this Oscar. I’m so so proud of you- they are so lucky to have you responsible for this project I JUST KNOW YOURE GOING TO KICK ASS!
I’m scared to be handling everything at home on my own. But also, I don’t have to worry about making dinner every day lol I also looked into hiring a house cleaner. I’m trying to see what I can do to make it easier on myself. I felt guilty for not being able to juggle it all. But we aren’t meant to do it all on our own. It’s not like I can take the money I save with me to the grave- and I’m so fortunate to be in a position where we can afford to(I hope) it just would help me out so much. I want to be the best I can be for Camila and I just know looking forward to those cleaning day help is going to be great for everyone.
Also, today we went to the beach. Side note on April 1st Camila took her first steps towards me. She caught us off guard. We were just chillen on the floor and and she was against the couch and she just started taking her steps towards me. I didn’t think I’d cry. But I did. I was so happy. I was happy that I didn’t miss a huge milestone. I wasn’t even trying to have her walk: I just want her to do everything at her own pace. I’m happy she felt confident and safe enough to do it all on her own. My smart girl! then she fell and hit her face on the corner of the couch and now she has a bruise on her cheek lol
Tomorrow she turns 11 months. Time flys! Part of me want her to stay little so she’s always safe with us, but part of me wants to see who she will become. I wish I can see but then rewind it. Aging is so scary. One day she’ll be grown. I just hope we always have a good relationship. Today .. we went to the beach. The Hernandez family went. She has a whole ass cheerleading squad when she’s with them. I love it. She gets celebrated for anything and everything. There’s no doubt in my mind that she’ll feel all the love from every angle!
Camila, you loved the ocean! I’m glad you did. Because our father and I love the beach. Personally, I hate the feeling of the sand and I think the water is too cold and I get scared ima get sick if I go in the water. But I love to sit and watch the waves, I love to hear the water crash against the sand. It’s a place I would go when I needed to clear my mind. Be one with the earth. As far as your dad, he would get in the water. . And I love that he would do that. Because then he’d smell like the beach. I hope you’re obsessed w the beach. Because I know if you were to ask us to take you .. we will always say yes. I love you more than I can ever explain. Not to be dramatic but I’d shkilL for you!
Just being honest- 