Good mom-

It’s hard to be a good mom,

It’s hard to be a good mom- when the battery is drained.

It’s hard to be a good mom when my patience is running low, when all I want is an uninterrupted nap.

It’s hard to be a good mom when I want to do everything so freely.

It’s hard to be a good mom when I have no comfort to give, so I try to push a smile here and there for her. Even thru the tears of frustration and guilt & sadness.

It’s hard to be a good mom- when you know she deserves more. When you raise your voice a little out because your patience is at negative zero , when you internally scream and can’t hold it so you scream quietly out loudly. Then you feel guilty again!!!

It’s hard to be a good mom when you want to get away, so you go to the bathroom to cry quietly in the corner to just get up like nothing ever happened and think I’m being dramatic.

It’s hard to be a good mom when you finally get to shower, but it takes you 10 minutes to finally start the routine to shower. When I go from what am I doing with a whole ass kid? To what am I thinking? Why would I think that? I love her!

I’m grateful to be healthy to watch her grow.

I ask god for more patience, and I apologize to her, I tell her that it’s not her fault. It’s not my fault either. We’re both learning how to be the best we can be.

It’s hard to feel like a good mom when the guilt hits you like a ton of bricks.

I will be a better mom tomorrow.

Reality check:

The fact that I’m here for everything to the point of exhaustion when I have nothing more to give.. means I’m here for all the good parts I get to enjoy. That’s a privilege.

I’m not a bad mom, I’m a good mom on a hard day.

Even on hard days- I’m still the sun to her 😭

We got this ❤