Crazy life

I haven’t been writing like I said I would, but life caught up to me. One of the most stressful/ fun weekends happened and in a split second everything fell apart around me and witnessing pain and sadness- feeling like i couldn’t do anything about it. – to trying to be excited for something I’ve been waiting for… opening my own salon. Did I mention scary adventure???? Rewinddddd to the week that I went to Mexico to celebrate my god daughters first birthday, and few hours later I went to Lisa balayage bootcamp. We woke up at 3 am and froze at the border what seemed like eternity. I cried thinking I was about to miss a class that Ive been wanting to go to for ever! And finally after 7 years later when my bank account stopped acting up I was able to purchase the ticket. Soooo being stuck at the border with 2 hours to get to class you can only imagine how panicked I was. YOU guessed it! I had a panic attack! Right before going up to the border. But, having someone reassuring you that everything will be ok and they will get me there helped! 👻❤️As I changed in the back seat and brushed my teeth, with 3 hours of sleep I was more than excited to attend a class! I learned a couple of new things, but I know I want to get more into the chemistry of hair. The more you understand the product and the structure of hair the more successful the end result will be. It was nice hearing victor and lisa talk about how many bleed spots they do and how they do mess up. I can be very hard on myself but I know if you own up to it and fix it ! Then you are doing your part. Also, victor showed us how to do a 30 ‘min foil with a assistant and so it pretty much means it’s NOT a 30min foil alone. So that was kinda eh. I was still very proud of Myself for attending. I pushed my self to attend a class because I still have a lot to learn!

On Tuesday when I went back to work, I got a call from my best friend. A call that no one from the outside really saw coming . A call that would cause a lot of pain and sadness to the people I love. I had a lot of emotions running thru me- but none that were close to what my best friend was going thru. I just knew I had to be there for her anyway I could. I don’t like involving anyone into my life when I’ve lost someone because I always felt like that was private and intimate to my personal life. But after a few days I made the choice to ask for support! her family and friends had to get it together to see what we could do to provide for her family! Without a doubt I thought of a raffle! I don’t care how much money I had to discount I just knew I wanted $20 for each square and i wanted at least 100 squares. I sold them all in two days! All profits went to her and the girls. That instant I knew how much I loved my career, The fact that my clients all came together to donate (some without even wanting to participate into the raffle) warmed my heart. Knowing that clients and friends knew how much my friendship with “the stubborn Scorpio” meant to me. I’d ask some clients what sign they were and if they said scorpios… I would just laugh and say “y’all are stubborn AF.” And then that would start the conversation of my best friend. No amount of money would fix the pain of the people surrounding me- but the support meant the world to them & me. I was shocked! And i want to thank anyone who shared, prayed, came to the carwash, donated and purchased from the raffle. I want y’all to know that: It wasn’t for me that you were doing it, it came from the goodness of your heart- for Henry. ❤️

3 days went by and I felt like I was stuck on the same day. Nothing made me laugh, or felt interesting. I just knew that there was pain and loss around me, and nothing really felt right or good to do. Everyone contacting me about hair would just irritate me, because even tho i have a business I had to run.. I couldn’t wrap my mind on how people could just move on from things so quickly. Like, the last thing on my way mind was to answer any questions about hair or appointments while I’m seeing people around me breakdown. 1 week exactly after that phone call from Andrea and Emilia, I get a message saying that my salon location was approved and ready to start the opening 10/05/2021 was the day I got the message and they wanted me to open 11/01/2021 – as I just starred at the message i wanted to feel happy, but I just said “oh shit.” Who am I going to share this with? Like – ive been waiting for this moment for about a year now.. and i didn’t want to share it because I felt guilty. I felt guilty for wanting to be happy, excited and proud of myself, when noone wanted to be in the position they were in- no one wanted to smile, everyone was still confused about what was happening and why. The first person I would text lost her husband, her BFF, the father if her girls just a week ago, & I knew that right now wasn’t the moment. I just knew that if things were different- Andrea would be the first person to say how proud she is of me and Im ok with that thought. When I was thinking about going to beauty school I’ll always remember telling her how hard everything will be, her response that stuck with me and I use until this day is “the hardest part of doing anything is starting it.” I forget a lot of things, but that stayed with me because it inspired me to just say -you’re right- and enrolled in cosmetology school.

It’s been two weeks- all I’ve done is post that I’m hiring! I have no plan on what! Lol because I am a person who learns from experiences not so much on planning. Stephanie is on my side with interior design 😎 and apparently $2,000 is not enough lol because the mirrors I want is taking a quarter of my very very tiny budget lol i had to purchase styling chairs $249 each x3, shampoo bowls that took me 4 days to choose and actually message people who have purchased to see how comfortable they were (because that will keep a client from staying with you) oh the price for those was my first born child’s down payment to their first car. Anyways- long story short let’s just say Addy thought my purchase was a lot of money! 😩 oh and shipping alone was $1300. Between trying to hire and get Insurence quotes – I was trying to find the excitement from all this. It’ll probably be at the end of a overdraft fee jk Is there smarter ways to start a business ? Yes! But say it with me “ i learn from experience not planning!”

There’s so much to do with what seems like 4 days until opening date. Meanwhile, I’m in the middle of holiday rush, trying my very best to be their for Drea and lightly doing my life. I just know that after that support I received from so many people .. I know opening my own salon was a good choice- thank you to everyone – words cannot describe how a vicious community got together for a person they have never met- just know he was worth it!