Today I found something out, I really don’t get excited about ANYTHING & if I do it last about 5 seconds. It all started when we went to Vegas and ate at a taco spot I got two carne asada tacos and the guaca salsa was good! I was soooo hungry! But then on the drive to Utah my stomach starting hurting. It felt like I imagine a heart burn would feel like but it was low in my stomach. I thought my period should be here in a couple days, give it take 2 days. So I thought that was the new cramps. I swear as we get older your body changes thru your menstrual to the point where you have no idea if it’s a cramp or you have a stomach ache that will cause diarrhea. I was also eating the gushers from that candy guy el gordo– so I thought maybe my stomach is burning because of the spices and my two sips of water. Boy was I wrong!
The ride from Vegas to Utah I wasn’t sure if my stomach ache was going to go away, but I knew either way I better take wipes because we were going to hike directly after. We didn’t eat any breakfast because we thought we would grab something to eat before but we also didn’t realize that Utah is an hour ahead and family was already waiting for us to start the hike + we were running so behind. We didn’t want to keep anyone waiting. So we went directly to Zion national park with nothing but coffee and a small croissant and blueberry scone in our stomachs.
As soon as we met up, I told Debbie if anyone had food, usually usually!!! As a good deprived hairstylist .. I can go hours without eating. But my stomach had that burning feeling again which I wasn’t sure if I had to shit or eat. Claudia ended up giving me some grapes which made me feel better, surprisingly with bird food in my stomach I hiked without a problem. I was also in a very good mood because the weather was nice and it was raining a bit. (Spoiler 🚨 I didn’t poop until 7 days later) which I’m happy it didn’t happen in the middle of a hike lol we went home, and I had enchiladas that Oscar’s mom made. It was missing some green sauce but she also had mentioned how she forgot the extra salsa. Either way, I ate everything she served!
We also hiked angels landing but minus the chain of angels landing, again this Mexican ass family only packed what seemed to be Bella Hadid’s lunch. My fat ass just wanted a torta but they really did prepare with healthy fuel. Nuts, dried cranberries (bomb) and for some reason the beef jerky was hitting the spot. A torta still would’ve been nice. I was getting so tired every 7 minutes. Yes, I timed it every time I rested. I haven’t worked out in months but even before I could’ve gone a lot longer without stopping. For some reason this time I was contemplating my relationship, I was thinking if this hike loving family was really worth it lol I did in fact survive- and every time I’ve gone up there it’s always worth it. Even tho Oscar yelled at me at the top because he wouldn’t let me choke him.
We came back home and I was craving hot Cheetos with lime .. I never eat that shit. Ever! But my body was going into shock from all the healthy things in my body that it was craving destruction. Later that night my stomach started burning again, I thought what if I have a ulcer and the chili is burning it lol I survived another night.
On the way back home, we stopped at another taco spot because we all thought we deserved that. I ordered three carne asada tacos and a mulita. As I sit and take two bites I instantly get so grossed out by the food. The salsa sucked, the tortilla was cold, the mulita cheese wasn’t even crusty on the edges, I just wasted money and food but I refused to eat. As we drove home my stomach started burning again! And I thought for sure something is brewing in there.. like am I ever going to eat spice ever again or will this ulcer or cancer take over my life😭
Now it’s Monday, and I’m back at work. I eat a johnnys cheeseburger which is my favorite and I look over at Oscar and we both decided that it did not hit the spot. Tuesday happens… Wednesday I’m wondering where the fuck is my period at because by this point it’s late by 5 days. I didnt think anything of it because May and June it started the 7th then in July it started the 11th, and in august it started on the 2nd. So I thought .. maybe someone out here stressing me out and it’s just going to be late.🥲
I started feeling that burn on my stomach again.. and my tits weren’t sore. I realized I was being really nice.. and also my nephew was giving me attitude.. babies sense shit. So I thought .. maybe I would take a test.
I took a test, and as soon as I put the test down I saw it .. I saw what I didn’t want to see. I took it to the room and I wasn’t sure what I wanted. ||. Then I took another test _| .. then I took another one __ __ blank. Oscar suggested I wait until the morning. He got me a Twix, my favorite chocolate (I ate one little bar I didn’t like the texture of the chocolate) then I made my favorite buttery popcorn (I never share that shit) as I’m writing this my stomach is burning again .. I never finished the popcorn. Oscar made the comment oh shit, your already not liking your favorite things.
This morning I took another test, and it was ||.
I’m pregnant– I think …. 9/10/2023 I’m writing this but won’t publish until I know everything is real and true. Oscar and I didn’t really react how I thought we would react. We’ve been talking about it(and even tho I didn’t want any kids- deep down I think I did) unfortunately / fortunately it wasn’t with who I thought it would be with. What I mean by that is I’ve mentioned before I was married and going thru the divorce. I was happy for a moment but I wasn’t happy in the end. I didnt feel like a family. With Oscar it’s different, he has my back. His family loves me. They see me as one- they include me and I knew that if I ever had a family w Oscar our children feel unconditional love. That’s all I ever wanted. Fortunately it didn’t happen with my ex, because his mom was right los ninos son los que sufren I knew that. My brothers and I are a product of domestic abuse and separation. I’ve seen how that affected them. I saw how my mom struggled to give us the necessities. I never wanted to be in that position.
Oscar has my back, when we laid there in the morning he told me we got this, everyone does this. It’ll be ok. And we just need to communicate. We’re a team. I love you..
The perfect choice of words. I’m scared. But I know in the end everything will be ok. Omg. my vagina is pulsating thinking of that lol I know we would be great parents. Every child LOVES Oscar. And my little homie Isla loves me lol and Lincoln also shoots his Ily’s you’re the best comments. My nephew for the first time last week ran to me with open arms (and idk if that’s cus he knows he gots a cousin in the making .. aka his only friend lol ) we do got this.
Shout out to everyone who was manifesting this .. Emilia! Saying we need a salon baby. my brother who everytime I say give me your baby! He says to get my own! Gabriella who asked me two weeks ago what would happen to her if I get pregnant like do you still come to work? Like what happens to my appointments.. she straight up denied my future maternity leave !
I’m excited, even tho I don’t show it. I’m scared what will happen with my business lol like ..I hope I’m able to be those superwomen who work while they are pregnant and I hope I’m not a little baby bitch and get tired quick. I guess this was a great time to get a mom car.
To my little baby. I thought you were an ulcer….I hope you know I like to bite and crack toes.
Just being honest- 